Farewell Kirkels!

I found this episode EXTREMELY boring. i kinda wish they would have skipped the hometown dates and went on to Tahiti...

1. Frank
I dislike frank now =(. Frank started out as my favorite but now he just kind of sickens me. His date was I think the most boring of all. He's like, I like you. I don't know if I can let myself like you. I want to like you but I'm scared. blah . blah. nothing much to say but that Ali is head over heels and he's not. eh.

2. CHRIS L!!!
Chris L was the good part of this episode. It was so cute the way his family and Ali interacted. Chris is my absolute favorite for Ali and I hope she picks him!!!



3. Kirk.
Kirk is gone =(. At the rose ceremony when Ali said that " your families are all great and had nothing to do with my decision" . I find that REALLY hard to believe considering Kirk's family was quite possibly the oddest family ever. Ali was appalled by his father's gross taxidermy work, and he goes home on the next ceremony. Coincidence? I think not.


4. Roberto
Roberto, magical prince charming. zzzzzz.zzzzzzzzz. I'm sorry. Roberto seems like a sweetheart and he probably is. He's just too perfect lol.
So who's it going to be?
I say Chris L. or Roberto. Chris L!!

let's see how far we've come.

I can't believe it's been ONE YEAR and TWO MONTHS with my sweetie!!!! =)
That's outstanding I think.
I was going through my pictures and I decided to post some random ones taken throughout last year and this year.
Apparently I was much more into picture taking last year than I am this year, because I have next to none of this year so far!
Ooops! Guess I'd better get on that.
Anyways these pictures make me so happy and each time I look at them I can't help but beam and smile.
I love you, bart.


At a clemson baseball game. I think we had just started dating at this point. The weather was extremely humid and horrible! But I still remember that it was such a blast being with Bart =).


This was taken just before prom 2009. We actually weren't dating at this time.. but we loved each other, when just hadn't shared that fact yet!



This picture was taken the day after our wreck, January 2nd 2010. This day was so surreal yet happy.



This was a Sunday afternoon sometime this winter. The weather had finally begun to warm up, so we decided to spend the afternoon at the park =).



Just before prom 2010!




goofing off at the park =)

I LOVE YOU!
<3

discovered.

On my way home tonight, I was bombarded with a collection of depressing, pessimistic truths about life. I realized how many discoveries I’ve made recently. This should be something worth celebrating, I mean I’ve been wondering what the answers to these questions were, and I found them. But the answers aren’t happy. They aren’t cheerful, and don’t leave me contently trying to sugar coat them, but they are worth repeating. I’ve discovered that life isn’t as easy as I’d imagined. Big shocker, I know. But really, at six-teen, eight-teen, life doesn’t seem like it ever could get any more complex or difficult. I guess that is what maturity is for. I’ve discovered that love is a job. Love cannot be placed into different “levels” or “phases” . Love is incomparable to anything else in the world. I’ve discovered that all these divorces and separations going on around the world have left me curious, and very determined to stop the cycle and reverse it. I want to educate myself if every way possible concerning why all this is happening. . . and I think I’m finding my answer by reading: Love and Respect. I’ve discovered that normal isn’t really a word. What is normal?! Normal people? Everyone makes mistakes, everyone has their own sets of problems, just some of them don’t choose to share with others, and some do. Yes, I know that some people are right and some are wrong, but I feel like people constantly sterotype people as “normal” who shouldn’t be, and “abnormal” to people who are totally wrong! I’ve discovered that trust takes years to get, but only seconds to lose. I’ve discovered that every single person you know in this world, will disappoint you at least once. Whether a small disappointment or a big one, disappointments are a part of life, and unfortunately the average person goes through a ton of them.

I’ve also discovered that God is with me every step of the way. Even though sometimes my attitude is pessimistic, my heart is tired and my body is sick of the everyday junk, He is there. He will energize my soul and mind and help restore my heart to the way it was when I was younger. Pshh you say, but you’re only 18! Yes, I know, which is why I’m jumping all of this now.
The future is hopeful =).